Well, that pissed me off. Cool. Thanks for that.
I don’t care about your life, nor your expiriences. Our lives are not the same. You’re only four years older than me. Just because you’ve seen people take things out of context does not mean that I am. You don’t know the background, the history or anything about the situation at all. You’re completely outside. You have no right to tell me that I shouldn’t be upset. That I shouldn’t try to make things better for myself. I don’t care what you think. You have no right to talk down to me like I’m a child, and tell me what I can and can’t do. You shouldn’t tell someone you barely know what they should and shouldn’t do. I didn’t care for you before, but now.. If things were different, and you didn’t matter so much to one of my best friends, I would have torn you open tonight. I’m so sick of people talking down to me, telling me that I have no right to be upset. EVERYONE has a right to feel something. Trying to express what I’m feeling to her was NOT an invitation for you to tell me what to do with my life. Tell me that I can’t make it.
I have never meant this with more sincerity in my life; Fuck off.
On another note; I got my brakes fixed today. Hooray! No more squeaks, although there’s $250 out of my pocket. *le sigh*
Also, went to my first drive in movie, saw Bourne Legacy and The Dark Knight Rises for $8. Heck yes. Would have stayed for Ted, but we weren’t completely prepared for how cold it was getting. Plus the puppy was restless.
I don’t even know right now. I’m still mad, and I have to spend all day tomorrow with someone I really don’t like. Perhaps I’ll need a drink or too after all.
Feck.
Perks of not having a best friend- you don’t have to feel ugly standing next to one.
aaaaaaand now my VCR broke. Fuck technology. =[
I basically feel like screaming
right in your face. She dumped you.
You’ve told me countless times that you’d rather have friendship than be with her. She treated you like shit. Made you feel guilty you constantly, never came to see you, didn’t seem to care, got jealous all the time. Why are you so broken up?
Time to pick yourself up off the floor and get over it. You aren’t in high school anymore. You don’t see her every day. You don’t have time to waste pining over some chick that wants nothing to do with you. I understand it was a long relationship and all but being unhappy isn’t going to do anything. You aren’t going to fix anything. You’re better off without her. Stop moping, and make your life what you want it to be. You have friends. Be with them. Or go make new ones.
At this point, I don’t fucking care how you handle it, you just need to. You aren’t the friend I used to be so close with. It actually pisses me off to see how pathetic you’re being about this. You’re stronger than you’re acting. I wish you’d realize that.
Eat too fast?
Feel like puking.
This weekend was great! Cloud all weekend, got to see Taylor for the first time since like 10th grade, lots of cuddling from both genders and a kittie, and mall time. It was nice to get out and about again. It seems like it’s been too long since I just got to wander. I think after work I’ll be taking more walks this week. I’m so happy I live somewhere safe enough to walk around in the middle of the night. Also, I really need to invest in some running shoes.
There were a few negatives, with some jerk knocking my mirror off, and cravings that I knew I shouldn’t give in to, but hell, it was a good time.
My brain is definitely working non stop right now, processing all of the happenings in the last few days. Walks are going to be so nice, staring at the stars and thinking, working my way through life. With that I think it’s time to try and get some sleep, since I haven’t had much since Wednesday night. :)
